What's next?

Last week I had the amazing opportunity to spend a couple of days in Edinburgh. I took a good old bus from London and after glorious 10 hours I arrived in Scotland. And my eyes just fell in love.
Edinburgh is absolutely stunning. It felt like Hogwarts, it smelled like fall, people were so nice and friendly and the city is just beautiful. But it was raining and cold (I guess even heaven has its problems).

On my second day there, while talking to the botanic garden with a baguette and sparkling water, I thought to myself: this place is so beautiful, I could just stay. We all think that at least once in our lives while traveling. I am very prone to say things like that. I saw myself living in Venice, Chicago, Washington DC, Patagonia and London. But this time it finally hit me: there is absolutely nothing stoping me form actually living in Edinburgh! It was such a new though to me that I got butterflies just thinking about it, but I finally realized that I have no roots anywhere holding me back. I am finishing college and I literally have the entire world to choose from.

I know it sounds obvious, but this idea is much more complex than it appears. By being privileged enough to be able to travel around Europe I realized that the world is just SO big and have so many cultures and places that I can relate to. I can build a life in so many places that it almost sounds sinful to settle with going back to Brazil or just staying in America. So I officially have my thinking hat on, because in less than two years I need to figure out not only what I want to do with my life, but WHERE I want to do it.

It is slowly hitting me how lucky I am to be able to make these decisions. My family is amazing and would support me even if I decided to live in Mars. When I was considering moving to America, I was too scared to leave my family, specially my brother, behind. So I told him that, and his answer was: you are the most amazing person I know, PLEASE leave and go have an amazing life. And when I asked my mom if she would be willing to pay for my college she said: even if I had to take 1000 loans, I want you to go wherever will make you happy. So yes ladies and gentleman, I have an amazing support system. And yes, I feel VERY pressured to do something wonderful with my life to somehow pay them back for being so fantastic.

On that note, I am sending Tim Burton a letter in the hopes that I can intern for him next summer. Wish me luck!